As You Were

This was never supposed to be me. I swear, I swear, I swear.

Walk through darkened door frames
paying no mind to the broken glass
accompanying fragments of your past
that invite themselves into my feet.
Crawl under blood-soaked sheets,
and make believe…
"This is as real as it gets.
the sun doesn't need my light to see."
I never saw my hands in the pitch black
rotting away from me.

God, am I even a man?
I've tried to be a child again.
I got what I wanted,
but I don't want what I have.

As you were.
don't mind at all.
Carry on becoming beautiful.
As you were.
leave me to resolve
the pain I am and the man I haven't been.

won't You stop loving me?
I could never forget.
something I could never be
is alone.

crawl under blood-soaked sheets,
and make believe...

I have painted the walls with the souls of us all
and left them to dry without a word
(could You ever stop loving me?)
I walked out the door, pulling the curtain behind
and buried the rest in the dirt
(I could never forget.)
I went through the streets like a man without need
with the child curling up in my throat
(something I could never be)
The war in my heart chose to bleed from my hands
along with the words I never wrote
(I could never be alone.)

As you were.
leave me to resolve
the pain I am and the man I haven't been
As you were.
Don't mind at all.
I know Grace is beautiful.

and I could never be alone.